gods plan

 
You know count your blessings . Have been thinking about my life and how it’s played out . My child hood was not easy at all but i lived. Teens wasted but i live adulthood more ups and downs then i would want to remember. But other have it so worst then i could ever imagine i have had a lot of blessing in my life. childhood i had my grandmother what a wonderful lady. she taught me how to be strong teens well let’s just say wasted had lots of good times some stand out more than others .but learned from it all had some good friends from it. some faded away .but some stucked it out. some were lost then found my adulthood has been a hard road my marriage had some tough roads but we made it work 27 years we have been together this December will be 27 year married. You know so people have regrets not me every step in my life has meaning and molded me into who i am. Some moments not so proud of but still made it . so in September i was baptized i would like to share this it was a beautiful part of who i am today. It has been a long journey but a life time of learning, to become who i am today.





Before I believed in Christ my life was difficult I had my family that I loved but I was always angry at life anyway I was always blaming everyone for all things that went wrong in my life. I hated where we were. I would always ask why he was letting this happen to me life was hard sad and I know I needed to do something to change my life.



I started working with my friend Sherri Bravo, and she invited me to a church tea party but I didn’t go. Things at home were becoming harder due to finances so I decided to take a second job. Sheri saw the strain that this was being put on me. She asked me if I wanted to go on a retreat because they had an extra seat but I ended up getting very sick and in the hospital by the time I returned to work the ticket was given away.



So I thought this was not for me. Again the anger to God came back. I was mad I didn’t understand why he didnt want me! Then at the last minute on a Thursday Sheri came to me and told me that someone was sick and couldn’t go and that there was a ticket and that she really wanted me to go, she thought this was something I really needed I said yes. But I didn’t know how my family was going to deal with it I was scared and happy at the same time. And I went. I never saw a place so peaceful and the speaker that year was so amazing. If felt like she was talking straight to me. So during one of the lectures she asked us to close our eyes. She asked a lot of questions. As my eyes were closed I could see Jesus, then she asked us to open our eyes and I was standing and crying I never felt so relieved all my anger and hate that I had was gone all I felt was love. My life was renewed and I was thankful to have everyone from church. I never saw so many women willing to stand up for me and believe in me. Sheri, Denise and Teresa and Amy were all so supportive and there to answer my questions. People from work were always so supportive. Katie even bought me a book that she thought I would like. I never felt so loved by people who didn’t even really know me. Paul’s sermons would always touch me I always felt he was talking straight to me. Then everything started changing. My daughter got the help she needed and went to church with me. Then my son started also going to church and other sons also found Christ as well. My husband always kept a check on me and made sure that I was going to church and my daugthers are doing well and I have a beautiful grandaughter I have a new life, a new home, and I have been so blessed with a wonderful family and friends , Including my church family. I never thought my life would be this wonderful and blessed.















I am only strong because of the strength God has given me. My life isn't easy not by a long shot BUT I have God.








There's A Reason

I was always taught, there's a reason

That people do the things they do,

Though you may not always like them.

Their heart hides a secret from you.

If they're quick to bite your head off

Or constantly brag and boast,

Remember, the people we like the least

May need our love the most.

Could it be they had been abused

Or even ridiculed all their lives?

These are the type of hurtful things

That make sure their heart survives.

But, the heart that survives is hardened

And, on the seas of life, they coast.

Remember, the people we like the least

May need our love the most.



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