grow down grow up grow out

so I have not been here in 10 months a friend reminded me about this. So still trying to loose the weight. but not obsessing over it .
but winter is the worst for me. always seen to get into a funk, so yesterday at church i was reminded of what i should be doing that I'm not so not going to make any excused because there is not one . i was heading into the right diction but took a detour. so I'm trying to figure it all out. see i gave it all up to god because his is in control right. but some were down the path i took it back was talking to a friend how i was feeling and how things are falling apart and i said i want to spend MY BONUS on me . but i used it to pay the bills that i fell behind on and that i was mad because it was MY BONUS. and as the woods were coming out of my mouth Omy how stupid i was. wow then i felt like an ass . sorry GOD sometime i need a good kick in the rump . so i been sitting back looking at the things. so see i always fighting the demons most of the time i feel berried alive. so their this painting at church. its this arm reaching for the light. fighting
all the way to reach the light .so its a hard fight some days i just want to stop. and that were I'm out in life so i am praying everyday . hoping one day ill reach that light this are going to be OK just a little hard today

weight loss

Day three: very sore today my legs hurt. the hardest part is this whole eating thing.this is hard for me I never been someone who ate breakfast so i forgot to bring breakfast so i didn't eat
Lunch: I had some bean soup that was yummy thank you Sheri' and a bottle of water and i did some snacking its hard not to at work so that's were I need to realize what i'm eating soI have to start counting the calories that i'm taking in i did do my exercised today even though my legs hurt .so all in all this was not the best day i wish i could take something that would make me instantly thin like everything else around us jk oh well pray that tomorrow will be better so how many calories should I be eating a day ???? I was looking to see if i could find anything on Google but cant find anything .

Day Two: Today was a good day went to church came home to have
BREAKFAST: half of grapefruit toast and hard boil egg 1 cup of coffee
Exercise: for 30 mins 20mins of strength exercise 10mins of yoga im felling good about this . the rest of the day was tiring then Dinner we had tacos i made myself a taco salad I enjoyed that. So I was told it takes 28 time before something becomes a habit so i guess i have 26 more days OK lets pray for my ability to hang in there I already feel better about myself. Still looking for some receipts for some new healthy dishes.

for many Years i have struggle with my weight . i don't like the way i look i feel like a blob but ....... i don't do any thing about it so i decided to stat this and keep a check on my self what i eat my exercise and my goal .
So lets start with my goal I always felt my best at 130ish so that is were I would like to be .
Right now I'm at the heaviest i have ever been and that is 173 ouch but my fault so I'm looking to write down my days to see how i do.
and also looking for diets that will help if some one has any that they have used or know that works can you send them to me.I can't afford to go to a gym so..... I'm going to use the wii fit and other programs for the wii as my exercise so here we start today:BREAKFAST
I had two cups of coffee half of grapefruit a peice of toast with jelly and a hard boiled egg i did 20mins of yoga and 10mins arobics so that was a good start my weight as of to day is 172.3lbs.